Nothing I ever do is good enough. I don't know why I even try.

uuuuuuh, I don't know if any of you are lame enough to watch john and kate +8, but I do, but watched the season premier of intervention instead last night and want to know what happened!

My brother Dwayne, and his fiancee Jessica has their baby Friday/Saturday at 1:04 am! She is adorable and perfect and smells wonderfully like baby and milk. It was so scary to hold a 2 day old baby!









much much much more pictures to come!

Okay, not only do I hate Christmas, after a day of shopping, this close to Christmas, I also hate myself, the government, and every single solitary person at walmart today who would not get THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

I saw Pats mom, and she made me cry in the middle of walmart =(! this time of year is just really hard on me so I am super super sensitive. lame.


lame.lame.laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame.


In good news, in about 20 minutes my boys will be over to watch kenny vs spenny and I can forget all about this terrible day (thanks reefer).

I hate Christmas, I feel like throwing a tantrum like a 5 year old.
Pat brought me flowers today, my favorite - orange tiger lily. what a cutie!

Tagging Meme Rules:
A. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
B. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people.

1. I am awesome, much like my wife
2. I am sitting at the computer keeping pat company while he cooks.
3. I have a very stinky kitty.
4. I finished reading that twilight book. I can see why 13-17 year olds are in lust.
5. I feel like my wifeface everyday now! I have to wear all black to work =( I love colours
6. I am very angry at my old landlord. grrr
7. I like being cooked for, even if it is hamburger helper (yuck, i hate cooking meat)
8. I am going to have chicken stew and a English muffin tomorrow. yum.


I tag everyone. ever.

My brothers having a baby and today me, him, the mama Jessie, my mom her mom and my niece Shyann went to fetal expressions in ancaster and had a 3-d ultrasound done! it was the coolest thing ever being able to see the baby and what it will look like!

so without further ado- this is my niece Abigale Marie Kruis Larner!













eiiiiii! 3 more months, come out baby come out!

So, and update on the keith situation in case any of you were wondering. Well, pretty much I talked to my mom, told her how I feel and nothing has changed. I punched a wall last night because whenever I try and talk to her on the phone he is sitting behind her talking over her and generally butting into my life. I don't even want to hear his voice let alone have him know about my life. I don't see this ending well. She's moving back into their old house and I refuse to go there so oh well. I love my mom but she's basically picked him over me, which is no surprise so I just have to live with it I guess.

I love sundays

Its 13 degree's in here. I'm cold cold cold. I have on fuzzy socks, plaid flannel jammie pants and a big big pat sweater. My toes are cold, my finger are cold and my poor little nose is ice.

I'm sitting here typing with James Ready wrapped in a blanket on the other half of my lap, he's cold and the laptop heat warms his feet.

I'm predicting a long long cold cold winter living in my crack head apartment. Two of the windows in the living room don't have screens or inside glass pannels. My balcony door blows open in the middle of the night (and day) and the screen door has no upper window pane. I realized today as well that there is no rad in the bathroom. Cold butt in the middle of the night is not my favorite thing I can tell you that.


In other news, I complain about my apartment too much. I love it here, I just hate the landlord and everyone else who lives here. Go figure. I want a house, I don't want my life mingling with strangers. I don't feel safe here, there are always police outside why oh why are they not doing anything. A woman with smashed up face crawled up the stairs yesterday. Banging on her dealers door. I don't want there people around me, I don't want them so close to everything I hold dear.

Pat is being beyond rediculous.


urrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg *pulls out hair*

Dwayne (my brother!) is having a baby girl!

got a text today " AUNTIE TRISH ITS A GIRL, I GET TO HAVE A DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL!!"

basically my brother is adorable, and I can't wait for the little baby to coome!

quitting shoppers made me feel really good, because it was like I was taking a step myself in the direction I needed to go - mainly away from shoppers!

Now I am faced with the decision of going back to school - I miss it already, seeing pat going off is going to kill me. I LOVE learning, as much as I complain and bitch about it while I am in school, I love learning and proving how smart I am haha.

Anyways, there is a program for 1,000$ and 4 and a half months that would give me my personal support worker certificate. The thing is, everyone is telling me that I am too smart and too educated to become a " professional shit whiper" , which confuses me, if i am smart, why do people treat me like I'm an idiot? funny.

The thing is that I love working with people, if I can help and talk to someone its what i want to do, ideally I would love to work with children, I just don't know how to get into it, I don't know how to get my foot in the door at all, and was thinking maybe a psw would be that opening. I don't know. i have an interview on tuesday, but I doubt I will take it, although it is better money. thinking thinking thinking, I have alot of it to do.


(  in oooother news! )

I put in my two weeks notice at shoppers drug mart.

it was such a weight lifted off my shoulders. they wouldn't even let me take a day off sick.

oh, and i have bronchitis. yaaay!

Its become known to me that I haven't posted pictures in here in forrrrrrever, so here are some pictures, soon I will upload some pictures of the new apartment, i love it! Sadly we probably won't stay here more than a year because the roof leaks and the landlord is crap. Plus in the two months that we have lived here about 4 crackheads have moved in, and while I realize they have to have a place to live...does it have to be next to me? jezze.

(  pictuuuurees! )

Me and pat had a fight last night
it sucked
I punched a wall.
now my hand hurts.
why do I have such a bad temper with those I love, but turn into a crying mess when people i don't care about piss me of?

Pat was gone all week, and it was nice to know that I can survive and be happy without him. He's going to be home tonight and I am EXCIIIITED yay! I have missed peen.

So I finally got internet back! yaay!

But I missed out on lots from my lj friends I am sure...so update me!

as for me - all moved in, still in the process of making it feel like home, graduated and still working at shoppers. boy is it hot out.

life has finally stopped shitting on me! yaaay! go me.

I passsed all my classes
Pat and I found an aprtment -we move in on the 31st of may (SO SOOON!)
1 year anniversary on May 26th
I graduate university on June 12th
Cottaging June 17/18/19
Having time to go visit my ladies in toronto (soon I hope!)

All of these things have great other stuff added in, such as getting a new kitty (when I am ready, not now), graduating presents, living acrost from a no-frills, etc etc.

love when life is great.